I've been waking up at 6am-6:15am for 2 weeks already. This is to avoid the "bathroom" congestion as i'm sharing 1 with 2 other housemates. One of them seems to go in and takes forever to come out. That is why i rather sacrifice at least an hour of sleep just to get ready. I'm also taking good breakfast in the morning and able to prepare myself promptly before my 8:30am classes.

Today will be the beginning of my 1st sewing project. After being traumatized by an OBASAN last semester, I am very determined to learn as much as possible and take it slow for this project. Recently i received a birthday card and this person wrote lots of quotes on it as a form of encouragement. And out of the many, I particularly like this "It doesn't matter how slowly you go as long as you don't stop".

My muni is coming in 8 mins. GTG!!!!!!!!!! RUN~~~~~~~~~

Wonderful Birthday

I had an awesome 22nd birthday. I woke up in the morning, and breakfast is being made as i replied the numerous SMS birthday greetings i've received. After, I took a warm shower and dolled myself up. And as usual, Peter starts to complain about my sense of "style". He commented that my eyeliner was too thick and it made me look fierce. My skirt didn't match with my top, and wanted me to change into jeans. He didn't like my matching belt and wanted me to tie up my hair. Argh! On my birthday! and he needs to complain so much. I don't know why he just can't get along with my new approach to looking and feeling good. I think he just needs to brighten up his own wardrobe.

We caught a movie. The Pursuit of Happyness. Note: Happyness is spelt with a "Y". Played by Will Smith and his own son. Very touching and motivational movie. My favourite part was when Will Smith told his son that nobody can tell him what to do and what not to do. If you have a dream, you have to do whatever it takes to protect it and pursue it. It is a rag to riches movie and even though some parts are exaggerated for box office sake, I really admired Christopher Gardner's strength to pick himself up when nobody believed in him. Makes me want to train myself to be stronger emotionally and face my fear.

This year, i had 3 birthday cakes to celebrate with. 1st was cut before I left for San Francisco at home with my family. 2nd, I bought a Japanese Cheesecake to celebrate with my housemates and 3rd, 3 of my housemates baked a cake for me! Lots of cake eating. I had a taste of ShiSha (Watermelon flavor) again. I had the apple one in Singapore. They call it Huuka over here. I'll definitely post some photos. :)

This week is the 2nd week of semester. Today's consultation went well with my design teacher. I'm glad. I'm still catching up with some friends for lunch or dinner. I wanna meet up with them before i get too overwhelm with school work and won't have such luxury.

Yesterday, i was working on my design project. Doing some research for my inspiration. I was using watercolor and colorpencils. Peter came into the room and felt thirsty. AND Guess what? He drank the water from the cup that i was using to wash my brushes!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA i cracked up till i can't stop. Luckily he got the message fast enough and spit the water out. :)

My new theme will be focusing on the word RAW. It is another attempt on something more conceptual instead of literal. I feel that doing something this conceptual involves a level of risk. With risk, I can experiment more and get a different approach in the process of designing a collection. I am in Level 4 - which is the start of my 3rd year. My instructor said this level is more experimental and breaking the rules. It is going to be exciting. :)

Tomorrow is my birthday. I'll be going out for brunch with Peter and his aunt. She is bringing us somewhere. At night, i think i'll get a cake and celebrate with my housemates. Tomorrow is the big ball game in US. Football - Colts vs Bears. I am not into it, can never understand the game.

it is 10:23pm now, i wanna return some emails, take a warm shower and start my designs. I'll sleep by 12am...i hope. :)
YuTing, I will go out with you lor..............:P

The Sweetness of Home

I just returned to San Francisco 36 hours ago. Surprisingly, when i told my body not to get too jet lag, it didn't get that screwed up as before. I woke up today at 5:48am and couldn't sleep till 9:15am. And the next time i see the clock it was 2pm. I had a good nap. and had a strange dream. I dreamt of my flute seniors ZhengGuo and Fathir playing the violin. My primary school friend Zi Cong was also playing the instrument behind them. It was a huge size orchastra, but lots of empty seats. I was with Peter's Aunt Anas and we were watching the performances on a skyscaper roof top. It was a magnificent sight. And guess what i was doing, i was holding pieces of music scores and chopping it with a kitchen knife. interprete this dream, anyone?

I went jogging around 3:45pm. Had a great workout. However, my knee joins begin to hurt so much. but it was bearable. i was told my a trainer not to go jogging, i should instead do the elliptical machine in the gym. But it was quite a nice day to be outdoors than sweating with other people in that odor filled space. :) I decided to venture up to this hill top park with Peter halfway during th jog. I saw an unleashed dog coming downhill with its owners. Failing to recognise that this is a park specially for dogs to be unleash and mingle around with other dogs and humans. When we were almost at the top, i could see countless dogs running freely, my immediate instinct told me to get out of this place asap. My fear of dogs has never cease to establish its power wherever and whenever i see them. ****Another resolution for 2007, read up more about dogs and understand better. So that i can slowly overcome my fear soon. :) Luckily I ventured uphill with Peter, Or else, i won't know how to handle it being alone. arghhhh....

This trip back home had been fun, fun and more fun. I met up with people i haven't seen for sooo long. They are Esther, Thandar, Alwin, Yiling, Yunting, Alvin, Samuel, Dean, Kiran, Kuok Ren, Jia Hao, Cheryl, Alan, Wei Bing, Wei Xiong, Zhenzhen, Adam, Mimi, Yingdan Rachel, Wen Feng, Rajeev, Arthur, Paula, Justina, Wei Yi, Shui Sheng, Janice, Darius.....blah blah......Very nice. :) The food that i had the most back home :PRATA! Most proud of myself, lead a temporary owl life, managed to stay awake till 4am w/o showing that i'm sleepy. heehhee :) I had a good rest this holiday and meeting up with old friends made me realise that i still do have a solid group of friends whom i can always depend on despite rarely seeing them. I want to express my heartfelt thanks to those guys who came all the way east to Changi to send me off. :)

I want to subscribe to Mobtv soon. S$10.93/month. Worth it or not?

a long waited blog entry...

I am in Singapore now. Today is Sunday, 14th January. Sitting in the living room, watching a Charlie = Helicopter rescue on National Geographic. My sister is beside me right now and she is also typing her blog. Guess who is copying who? :) U need to find out yourself. HAHA
I went for car hunting today. Hunted from Bukit Timah, to Queenstown, to Ubi. Had a long day. but A good day. because it wasn't raining hard and sunny hot. We were hunting for a Hyundai and my brother is very interested in the Hyundai Getz. I thought of the QQ Chery car. After sitting in a friend's QQ, i thought it was cute and something unusual. However, it is too small and the engine is like "Ka Na Ji" = Olive Seed's Seed = ultra small. But too bad, i won't e driving this car yet. coz it will be out on the road, when i'm already back in the States.

I think by now, you will know who is copying who...hahahahaha

PS. my new year's resolution = reduce consumption = food & $$$

I just had a sip of my dad's XO. Superb. He is excited about his emails. HAHAHA
He is talking...talking..talking....he is returning his sms. High-tech old buddy. Love him

I'm going home.

After these 2 months of non-stop working, finally it is time to have a good break. I stopped blogging when all the final projects set in and also when my cousins and sister came to visit. I am glad they did, because i managed to plan my time quite well between school work and travelling both weekends with them around the bay area. I felt like i was a tourist myself too. I went to places that I haven't been before. The eerie, often misunderstood Alcatraz Island, the world's curvest street-Lombard Street, eating fresh crabs,clam chowder and sweet prawns at fisherman's wharf, shopping till i "drop" at Gilroy outlet mall and many many many more!!! These were the happiest days out of the many working-like-a-bull 24/7 project days. On the contrary, it wasn't as bad. You see, after 10 or more weeks into a semester, your fuel will be way low...and the motivation steam isn't running at its optimum performance. So i didn't put it the kind of effort that i had at the beginning. :P But i'm glad I managed to finish this semester well, because i can still remember the SUPER "SWAY" (bad-luck) start i had. HAHAHHhahAH

I have been quite a Taiwanese Idol Series Addict recently. My good friend I-Wen introduced Scissor,Paper,Stone to me and I also just finished watching Wei Xiao Pasta. Both series not only helped me to relieve stress, it made me think alot about LOVE... YummMMMMYYYYyyyy.~~~~~ I like both very much....because they had great perfect endings. Does such love only exist on TV?? Sooo envious of the main female characters. But i know, fairy tales also do happen in real life. I believe such love can be felt if we live our lives observing more clearly. Don't demand too much. Because an innocent carefree heart can feel the most. :)........................ haha

Christmas Eve was quiet for me. We went out to Olive Garden for pasta(influenced by the show i just completed) and also went to twin peaks. He wanted to give me a surprise....but i caught him in the act~ so no suprise, but i'm still very happy. I was watching episode 9 while waiting for him to get me in the evening. Being alone as all my housemates went home, I'm very sensitive to the sound going on outside of my house. Hyper-sensitive!! I'll always peep out of my curtain to see who slam their car doors, be it my neighbours or just some random people. He tried to give me a surprise by parking further, and since he has a set of my house keys, he wanted to sneak in quietly and hang that Santa Claus stocking by the fire place in the living room. But, too bad, with my
alert mode on, i saw him. and the stocking. and that shocked and cheeky face. He saw me too. and he was so disappointed. because his master plan got ruin. HAHAHA He wanted to surprise me on Christmas day morning....:) well, if u are reading this, try harder next time, okay? don't give up...i'll wait for u. :)

It is going to be 8pm. I feel like eating pancake breakfast for dinner. Ihop is 24 hours. and they serve breakfast anytime. :) I need to go home soon to vacuum my room, tidy up abit, and maybe wash my bed sheets. you all know why? Because i'm coming back home.......

I had my taste of death...so close...

I went over to Berkeley today after class to get fabrics. I was super tired, so i slept during the train ride back which was 30-40 minutes. When I arrived at my stop, I had to transfer again for another tram to reach my house. Usually the wait for that tram is 5 minutes in the day to 30-never coming minutes at night. Luckily, it was coming out of its station which mean I don't have to wait at all. BUT! i have to rush. However, i was at the other side of a big road. Lots of cars because it was after school hours so many students and school buses around. I managed to J-Walk one side of the road, but the other side, I didn't look, and almost got hit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!! that pick-up truck had to shriek to its stop. But what saved me was this African American guy who was also trying to rush for that tram too. He was crossing the road with me and he saw what was going on and quickly grabbed my arm. I was so shocked, my legs felt so jelly. I couldn't think. I almost died. Can you imagine if not for that guy, and if the pick-up truck didn't stop in time, I won't be here typing my blog. Linda called me, when i was on the tram, she told me I was given a 2nd chance to live.......a 2nd chance....

Many things went through my mind. If it did happen, the fabrics that i just got to make my skirt will be wasted. The things that i got when i was shopping in Gilroy will be wasted. My excitement of starting my finals project will never be fulfilled. My sister and cousin will not see me when they come back SF from their road trip. I will never go to the gym again to get fit. EVERYTHING WILL BE GONE IN THAT MINUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I called my mom, I needed to talk to someone...she is always the 1st in my mind. I cried, I had to, it was tears of shock, tears of how life is so fragile and tears of joy that I'm still alive. She told me to get some Jing Feng San to calm me down. I cannot be so "blur blur" anymore. If i miss this tram there is always another tram after 10 minutes. If i get killed, i'll miss everything. I'm so grateful. Thank God! :)

Extreme Busy-ness

I have been truly occupied for the past two weeks with lots of things happening. My brother visited 2 weeks ago, was trying to complete a design project, sewing a tailored jacket etc. However, I can feel that a strong fighting flame is growing ever more brightly because it is the final 3 weeks of my Fall semester!!! I am so going to complete this semester with a huge positive BANG! and enjoy my short winter break~ :)

My sister is here to visit too! Along with my cousin Peisong and his wife PeiYu, they flew in from Manchester. Despite the jet lag and bad start while transiting in Chicago, we had an awesome time shopping at Gilroy Premium Outlet mall. There was this adrenaline rush the moment we set forth South. We started at 11:30am and was only satisfied and tired by 6:45pm. Solid shopping experience. I guess the biggest winner might be my sister. she was loaded. :) I wonder why i didn't go shopping with her in Singapore when i was there in Summer. Maybe it was the heat. :P just wanted to rot at home.

They are on their way now to Las Vegas, then Grand Canyon, Death Valley, Hoover Dam.....Even though i can't join them, its okay, i'm happy because I know they are going to enjoy themselves and bring back lots of snap shots. :)

I remember the very 1st time I experienced separation anxiety in Iowa City, when my brother had to go back to Boston, and I'm all alone in "corn land". I headed to philosophy class and felt so lost and lonely. And dinner that night, was Korean instant noodles = Xin Ramen, i couldn't eat even though i was hungry. It was hard to even feel because i felt so numb. Those were the tough times when i realised I'm really on my own.

As time past, separation anxiety isn't as bad anymore. It had affected me from 3-4 months, to 3-4 days to now...maybe 3-4 hours. What is most important is that i enjoy every single moment when friends are visiting and truly, sincerely have fun. Fun times flies, that's proven by many people. So why bother to worry about this and that when everything will past. Don't take life too hard on yourself, it is too short to waste it.

Today, i walked past this walk way where some men just paved some fresh cement. Guess what, when i went home today, it was tattooed with words. Hmmm.....maybe humans lack a space to express themselves.....

Extreme Busy-ness

I have been truly occupied for the past two weeks with lots of things happening. My brother visited 2 weeks ago, was trying to complete a design project, sewing a tailored jacket etc. However, I can feel that a strong fighting flame is growing ever more brightly because it is the final 3 weeks of my Fall semester!!! I am so going to complete this semester with a huge positive BANG! and enjoy my short winter break~ :)

My sister is here to visit too! Along with my cousin Peisong and his wife PeiYu, they flew in from Manchester. Despite the jet lag and bad start while transiting in Chicago, we had an awesome time shopping at Gilroy Premium Outlet mall. There was this adrenaline rush the moment we set forth South. We started at 11:30am and was only satisfied and tired by 6:45pm. Solid shopping experience. I guess the biggest winner might be my sister. she was loaded. :) I wonder why i didn't go shopping with her in Singapore when i was there in Summer. Maybe it was the heat. :P just wanted to rot at home.

They are on their way now to Las Vegas, then Grand Canyon, Death Valley, Hoover Dam.....Even though i can't join them, its okay, i'm happy because I know they are going to enjoy themselves and bring back lots of snap shots. :)

I remember the very 1st time I experienced separation anxiety in Iowa City, when my brother had to go back to Boston, and I'm all alone in "corn land". I headed to philosophy class and felt so lost and lonely. And dinner that night, was Korean instant noodles = Xin Ramen, i couldn't eat even though i was hungry. It was hard to even feel because i felt so numb. Those were the tough times when i realised I'm really on my own.

As time past, separation anxiety isn't as bad anymore. It had affected me from 3-4 months, to 3-4 days to now...maybe 3-4 hours. What is most important is that i enjoy every single moment when friends are visiting and truly, sincerely have fun. Fun times flies, that's proven by many people. So why bother to worry about this and that when everything will past. Don't take life too hard on yourself, it is too short to waste it.

Today, i walked past this walk way where some men just paved some fresh cement. Guess what, when i went home today, it was tattooed with words. Hmmm.....maybe humans lack a space to express themselves.....

worked out~

Finallllly!!!!!!!!!!! After almost 3 months of idling, i head to the gym this morning. it was raining real lightly, but the promised i made with myself have to be fulfilled somehow. very determined. was a good work out, 25 minutes on the cardio machine and other 30 minutes resistance training. It was hard to get the momentum going. right now, (3 hours later) my whole body is aching. very very tired. I thought after working out, my body should release serotonin which helps lift my mood and gives me more energy. But honestly, i just woke up from my 2 hours nap!!! can u believe it?? haha
I felt that way before when i started going to the gym in April. but there after, i was alright. :)

I am going to start my design project research. I think it is going to be fun. Today's weather is so gloomy, very very depressing.
Can't wait for tomorrow to come!!! Its Friday and Korkor is coming in from LA~~

focuss!!

I missed sewing lesson last week. because i had to rush for a project due last Friday, and today, i don't know what to expect for class. I can't wait for this semester to be over, because i can't "tahan" this sewing teacher. She's a Japanese O-BA San! very irritating old bitch. seriously. I wish she gets fired by the end of this semester. She's new, doesn't have teaching experience and really quite bAD at what she is employed to do. this is me just trashing her! argh!!

The Four Agreements:

1) Be impeccable with your word.
2) Don't take anything personally.
3) Never make assumptions.
4) Always do your best!!!

Do not be concerned about the future. Keep your attention on today, and stay in the present moment. Just live one day at a time. Always do your best to keep these agreements.

I want to improve my emotional health, take away all the negative evils in my mind. Jealousy, anger and fear. I want to improve my physical health. Down with slight cold. but been drinking lots of cold season tea and Vitamin C water. should be fine in few more hours. I want to start my gym routine. I will go tomorrow morning! this is a promise i make with myself. :)

An aesthetic experience out of this world...

I went to watch an Indian theatre production last night with Linda. Nine Hills One Valley, at Zellerbach Hall over at UC Berkeley. It was something i've never seen before. Even for film/theatre major Linda, she hasn't seen anything like that till last night. It was about how traditions in India are gradually losing its roots due to violence and unstable social situations. I was overwhelmed by the Mothers crying and how they pour their emotions out to the audience. It was amazing how it captured my mood too. They didn't have microphones, so they had to project their voices out towards us. and even though we sat at the back, we could feel that strong and agonizing pain felt by them. it was really an eye opener for me. I truly enjoyed it and i want to start exploring these shows that are showing around here. There are really alot to see!!!!!!!!! i can't believed i've been living in my own hermit world without realising international production are brought so close to me. I just have to tap on it!

I've scanned the "ABOUT" from the program written by the director of this projection. :) enjoy~!


I was being lazy, put 2 of my nice clothes into the dryer!!! and it shrank!! :( quite a bit, now it looks funny wearing it. it looks okay, but it is shorter now. Usually i'll just take it out from the washer and air dry it in my room, i guess i wasn't thinking yesterday when i was doing my laundry. now i know. ONLY DRY MY PANITES AND HOME CLOTHES IN THE MACHINE!!!!!!!!!! :P

its getting colder in SF. my hands are and feet are freezing this moment. burrrr..r....

lalalallaa

I am so tired. taking a short break. watching bleach episode 91. The part where Ichigo confronting Bountos. :P
Finished 5 croquis(fashion quick sketch). have another 5 more to render. The very 1st semester, i needed 1 hour to render 1 sketch. Now, maybe 30 mins or so. Guess it is letting my mind free. Allowing my creativity do whatever it wants, instead of restricting it and guiding it to a specific outcome. Learning to let go is really important in art. Don't hope too much for the result, have to enjoy the process. That is when creative juices really flow. Presentation tomorrow. I think tonight i can sleep. Coz i skipped class yesterday just to finish alot. haha also korkor was in town, so it was great to have him around. :P
back to bleach....

Guess what?

I messed up my sewing project AGAIN! Out of the 3 sewing projects since the beginning of this semester, i screwed up twice and have to RESTART from scratch. The 1st time was a skirt project, i was so sad, frustrated, disappointed and CRIED so HARD when i know i had to redo. All ALONE. BUT i called my mom to tell her and she encouraged me, and i felt so much better. This time round, i am frustrated, but not as intense as the last time. Sad, but not very sad. Disappointed?? Not anymore. I am taking this as a learning process. I'm in school, i'm supposed to fail and failing is what you can do in school. I've given my best and maybe, one has to give her best TWICE or even THRICE before the right result will be achieved. Agree? In the near future, as we all enter the adult world, we are bound to meet failure and tough circumstances. By then, we shouldn't be crying anymore.(like me) We should be figuring out where the problem is and do trial and error. School is the time to polish this skill of "never giving up". I might be slower in terms of getting the grasp of sewing. But, I can feel my confidence is building up slowly with each failure. I've been figuring out difficult parts by myself and have learned much more than previous sewing classes.

Remember, Shi Pai Nai Chen Gong Zhi Mu. :) I used to have to cry, before i could stand up. Now, I can stand up. :)

Open Up

Everyone lives in their own world. They have they own goals in life and constantly, they will do lots of things to achieve their wishes. One can be selfish and work as a hermit and don't let people know what they are doing. That's alright, but if they were to enclose themselves even from their loved ones, that's dangerous. Their loved ones care about them much and want to witness their growing success. They themselves won't be involved directly with your goals but they want to feel being part of it. It isn't asking you to go around telling people your dreams, but just to your loved ones, because they are the only one who will look out for you when you can't see clearly. :)

I'm going to the doc's later. wish me luckk~~

updated photos for my personal podiatrist. hehehe :)

I am so tired now. I don't know why i've been so lethargic and lazy since the beginning of this semester. I take naps, sleep early, wake up late, rarely go gym, stay home and do homework. :( I've got to do something. I will definitely start the gym routine once i get my callus/corn/wart checked by the podiatrist on monday. But it is getting better, it isn't as hard, but, still can feel it when i walk.

Btw, sorry about the photos guys, might be disturbing, but, it is a record of what i'm going through now, it is important to me to blog it down too.

My brother sent me a short article.


After reading it, it made me reflect a little. Treating the human brain as an inbox, filled with information of that day, for instance 50 over emails per day for a working adult, deadlines, projects and tests for a student, and the endless worrisome future that is ahead of all of us. It can be quite stressful for our soul to handle. Shouldn't we too empty these strenuous thoughts and go to bed with a piece of calm mind? I wish life is so simple...like an email account.






Thank you Carol! :) Your help is so appreciated here. :)

Big Head Prawn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just realise the reason why my callus hasn't gotten any better despite using the callus remover plaster!!!!!!!!! I've been sticking the plaster (left side) THINKING that it will attack my callus because of the medicated salicylic acid, right? But to hell with it!!!!!!!!! I just realised the salicylic acid is in a different package (right side) Who in the world can get as BLUR, DUMB AND TOOOTTT as me? WHO?!?! tell me?? i can't believe this!!!!! so frustrating. And Xiu Hua's friend, a podiatrist in the making, gave me a great consultation last night and i didn't even realise that i haven't been applying it properly. *boo hoo hoo* i feel like taking out my brain and slamp it onto the wall. and see it being squashed! :(

enough, enough. at least i realised it. so, it is NEVER too late. Just applied it the correct way. If not, come thursday, i will go to the podiatrist near my place and get the thick callus removed. argh!!

Today, i woke up with sharp pain of "gastricism". Had Po Chai Yin. rested for a while and went to school. This 2 months, i broke the record of eating 1 whole box of Po Chai Yin. I hope i won't get immuned to it, it is such a wonderful remedy. :P

Okay...sian balls (A term I got influence from my sister, apparently she learnt it from Shui Sheng) It means, being frustrated with something despite trying so many times and still fail. This is what i'm feeling right now. Anyways, i will polish up the balls so that it won't be so dull anymore.

Off to draft my patterns. Btw, Big Head Prawns in Canton means....being blur.

One of the good nights alone

Being very determined to cook the chicken which i took it out of the freezer since Saturday, I went straight to make my dinner once i got home. Luckily, it was still fresh. Quite proud of myself because i resisted the temptation of having it easy by Peter's "Want to go Stones?" Stonestown is a shopping mall near my place. but, nah...

And, my housemate made soup, i "cope" (took in Singlish) 1 big bowl!!! It was some Mexican noodle soup with chicken. It was good. This dinner is considered a good meal, according to my "live alone meals" standards.



The callus under my left foot is getting worse. It has thicken so much that it hurts to put little pressure when i walk. I bought more callus remover pads with salicylic acid. Xiu Hua-my long time friend who is pursuing nursing in Mel is helping me get advice from her friend, a podiatry. :) I'm going to give it 1 more month, or else i'm going under the knife.

Today one of the founders of "Enyce" http://www.enyce.com/ came to my school to give a talk about his clothing company. But surprisingly, he didn't present much stuff on his business. Instead, he was talking about his life, how his personality and values helped him in surviving in the throat cutting industry. His keys to success.
1) Have leadership
2) Know what you don't know
3) Endings are beginnings
4) Love what you do!!!
5) You have to produce results
6) Don't be afraid to think big, take risks and make commitments
7) Have a belief
8) Trust others, Trust yourself
9) Seek help from others when you don't know
10) Generology = Give back to the world
11) Don't take things personally. 10% is what you do, AND 90% is your reaction to the situation.
12) Be the gardener to your garden. Have pure seeds, so that you can cultivate pure thoughts.

and finally, he left us with this poem which i think is inspiring..


Autobiography in Five Short Chapters

By Portia Nelson

Chapter I

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in
I am lost . . . I am helpless
It isn’t my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter II

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter III

I walk down the same street
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in . . . it’s a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

Chapter IV

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

Chapter V

I walk down another street.

Simple, yet beautiful....:)

Goood day!

I woke up this morning feeling great. I haven't felt like that in a long time. Maybe the sangria did a good job. I don't know? We went to catch a movie last night.Me and Jo at the Century. We watched "The Departed". I didn't get the chance to see "Wu Jian Dao" so it was hard to get into the movie at the beginning, with their accent and speaking thick slang. and lots of "Mother Fucker"...haha. but I sort of caught on and my heart was racing so quick for Leonardo-the good guy when he was up at the roof top with Damon. It is amazing how movies can make you feel what they want you to feel just by sitting on that chair. Jack did his role so well. I love his acting!! :) can't wait to catch Marie Antionette next week.

to do list on a Sunday:
1) Get Zheng Gu Water from Pacific Supermarket. think i sprained my calf muscles somehow..
2) Thank god, i did my laundry already.
3) Clean the stain infested stove. really disgusting
4) Finish reading Aesthetics and the Renaissance.
5) 2 more garments to be drawn on Illustrator.
6) Study for buying classs midterm on Tuesday.
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YiYi

I just finished watching this simple yet beautiful film by Edward Yang, YiYi. Set in the 90s, based in Taiwan on a family of 4. It tells us different stories. How each member takes on their own routes in life which will mold them individually. They aren't as connected as a family physically very much, but emotionally, they seem to be strong and always there for each other. The movie is quite long, might be due to the detailing work the director went into for each character.